Yesterday I went to dinner with one of my girls. (Would've been 2... but we won't get into that >:/). She so graciously waited with me until iftar, and then we went to an Indian restaurant. (OMG DELICIOUS.)
Anyway.
Then we went to get smoothies. (Blueberry Pineapple... AAH. 3 more hours til iftar. :P)
We stood in line, and right behind us came these 2 guys, obviously from the university. No big deal, whatever.
Well, then their friend came in. And I knew him.
I went to school with him. In the 3rd grade, I remember I told him he was lame and proceeded to punch his photo in the yearbook. lmao... It was friendly hatred, though.
Then he got to high school and I think that's when he realised he could use the fact that his dad is the biggest businessman and richest man in this town to his advantage. He became a hot shot baseball player and talked to no one that wasn't in his group.
Well, you know what... all that seems to change when you get to college. Everyone humbles again. It's kind of like a mature humble, again. You wave and smile to people from your school, you might even talk to them... despite the fact you never talked to them in high school.
I'm always surprised when this happens.
And that's what happened.
He was hugging his guys and high-fiving them, and I could hear them talking to him about baseball or something (he plays for the university and I assume they were his teammates) and he stops, mid conversation, and goes, "Hey you, how's it goin?"
So of course, when I heard my name, I instinctively turned around and was said hey... but it was strange.
I don't know why it's strange. He recognized me and proceeded to say hello.
Then I got to thinking, when I finally get around to wearing hijab... (not that it matters much) will people recognize me, will they still say hi, or will they be scared?
How do you go from knowing someone as one thing, and then knowing them as something else?
It's always weird to see people I know in their army uniforms or when they come back from training or whatever. First of all, I alwaysalwaysalways get nervous when I'm around anyone in the military. And it's not just me, I'm taking Arabic with Brittany, and she said they army people in our class make her nervous. And she mentioned this first, out of the blue! And how relieved I was. I thought I was being judgmental or something.
I don't know why it makes me anxious. But it does.
So not only do I see these people I know and get anxious, but it's just strange. Like, when did you get all muscle-y?!
Or when someone gains weight or gets pregnant. Oh man, that's a terrible one. I literally do a double-take. I'm like, "Wait, is that...?"
So... it's a natural thing to look different. But I still wonder how many people that I went to school with will stop talking to me or just not realize it's me.
I'll have the chance to clean-up my act.
I'm working on my cursing. That's my main problem, right now. I say something, and then I realise, OH NO, WHY DID I SAY THAT?! And I do this thing where, if I realize before I say it that I'm going to say a curse word, I say "fruitloops". And it's such a mouthful... that it works. It sounds silly, it's less hurtful, and though I mean to say something else, I still express anger... but in a better way. I should just... not want to express anger that way, but I'm working on it. :( I promise!
I don't know what's stopping me from just walking outside with a hijab right now.
Like... my mom doesn't. My sisters don't. My Aunt does after she came back from Hajj. 1 of her 4 daughters does, just out of the blue.
Then on my dad's side, no one but the old ladies do.
And it's crazy, because one of my second cousins was a 2006 contestant in Miss Egypt.. so she did the swimsuit modeling or something. Which is really the only part of the entire thing that kind of threw off my entire family. Like.. "uhh... does she know she's walking out, infront of millions of people, half naked?"
Btw. http://ohitwontbeforever.xanga.com/705894496/lift-the-veil/
Awesome.
Seriously.
Love it!
And funny how during the summer, I didn't update as much, but not that I actually have work to do, I update. Hahaha...
Off to finish my Statistics project. :( GROSS.
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